So I have had a lot of people asking me about when my long talked about CD is coming out, and I truly appreciate everyone who wants to hear my new songs. Truly.
The truth is that I had been struggling with something off and on health-wise for a few years, and it escalated and I ended up severely sick for about 10 months until recently. During this 10 months, I was going to a minimum of three doctors visits a week trying to find out what was wrong with me. I have tried every holistic ritual you can imagine. I altered my diet, I cut out gluten, cut out dairy. I underwent immune therapy, and found out four months later there was nothing wrong with my immune system. I started acupuncture twice a week because it was the only thing that managed my pain. Was going for multiple CT scans, blood work four times a month for multiple different doctors and all I wanted was answers.
During this 10 months, I never complained about being sick. I didn’t let it stop me from doing anything that I wanted to do; traveling, working out, working on my music. The only thing I was physically unable to do was sing, and that was the ONLY thing that mattered to me. I recently underwent surgery and am now feeling 100% better but am still healing, and some days I can sing, and some days I can’t. I have about two vocal sessions a week, where I either go and it’s a good day or I go and we can’t keep the majority of the vocals.
Honestly, I’m pissed about it. Irate actually. But I’d like to think irate in like a peaceful kind of way like Ghandi or something. And just for the record, anyone that is physically healthy and capable of doing whatever dream or goal you may have for themselves and isn’t doing it: 1. I am insanely jealous of you. 2. I am SO angry with you. Why are you letting your ambitions go to waste? Other people would kill to have what YOU have, please do not take it for granted.
I’ve come to the realization that, if whatever in my life doesn’t go my way or how I had planned, as life often does, I need to ask myself one thing:
Can I control this?
If the answer is yes, then the next question to ask yourself is: What can I do about it?
If the answer is no, then you should ask yourself: Am I doing everything within my control?
If you are absolutely doing everything within your control, it doesn’t benefit you to beat yourself up about something you have no power over. But if you are not doing everything within your control, why aren’t you!?
I sure as hell will make sure I am doing everything possible that I can control to get me closer to where I want to be. I hope you are too.
What is in your control today?